Over analysing as I do and seem to have hit upon an interesting road block. I admit that I am not the most confident of riders and can easily lose confidence, then take an age to get it back. However I have realised that this time I am not scared of riding, but of things going wrong. Will I get ill again, will the horses injure themselves, will the car break again, will I plan something and have to cancel because of work etc. At the moment, work seems to be the sticking point because I am having to do longer hours so am not getting to the yard as much as I want too. I want to start getting myself and the horses fit, but due to all of the above, I am, quite frankly, terrified of getting started. The funniest thing is, I do not care of one of the horses spooks, bogs off or bucks (I may object to a rear or true bolt though), I just want to go and ride my horses!